Day 61: 5-13-20 (Wednesday)
Today was another winner. Insert sarcasm. The BS with my siblings continued all day. I had to turn my phone off. It is ridiculous. I spent the entire day dealing with estate business. It is a NIGHTMARE despite my mother having literally EVERYTHING prepared and ready.
A bright point in my day was that I finally went to the nursery down the street and bought my first round of plants and flowers for my porch and deck. It was a heavenly respite from my shatty day. My phone was off and I planted flowers and enjoyed the beauty...and silence...all around me.
Chronic stress is really causing problems for me physically...migraines, stomach issues, body aches. I can't keep going on like this. Setting a boundary of not being available to my siblings all day/all night has been helpful. Go to therapy people!! Thank goodness for my brother. He is an oasis of sanity.
Tyler and I watched Schitte's Creek tonight to unwind and relax. It always puts me in a good mood! I love that show! Tyler tucked me into bed early and took care of things with the kids for the rest of the night. I kept my phone off which was a good thing because the texts continued to come in even after midnight. They need to give it a rest. I am looking forward to picking up the boat tomorrow!
Day 62: 5-14-20 (Thursday)
I'm glad I went to be early because I woke up to sibling texts at 6 am. Delightful.
Tyler and I drove to Sandpoint to pick up the boat. It has been stored at my mom's old house that my sister is currently renting from our trust. Jordin was at work. We had a great (and much needed) visit with my brother-in-law Ramon. It was so nice to see him and we talked for over 2 hours. It was really hard not to hug him...and these two:
Social distancing with my niece and nephew wasn't fun but Jordin is a nurse and comes in contact with all kinds of people and we have to be careful. It was good to see and visit with them! Maggie Mae (my Mom's dog) is doing well and was super happy to see us. We drove the boat directly to the boat repair place in Spokane to fix anything that needs fixing and to service it for the summer. I can't wait to use it!
Tyler installed our fancy bidet. It's quite the thing! Heated seat, remote control, so many settings we need a guide posted on the wall, LED lights, warm water, heated blow dryer... the kids were laughing their heads off using it. LOL. I think I'm a fan. I'll keep you posted.
Today I worked in the yard and worked on my business. I have so much inventorying to do! It was good to have a busy and productive day!
Day 63: 5-15-20 (Friday)
Today was a nothing day. A COMPLETE WASTE OF A DAY. All day was spent dealing with my mother's estate and my siblings. We will be going to mediation. It is ridiculous. I was so drained that neither Tyler nor I had any energy for a date night. I just climbed into bed early and went to sleep.
Day 64: 5-16-20 (Saturday)
After the complete crap day yesterday we really needed to do something fun! We decided to take Ailey, Bryn, and Beverly on a little day trip to Palouse Falls. (Kam was working.) Palouse Falls is really cool! It is about an hour and a half away. The last time we went Bryn was a baby in the backpack. The falls is at its most spectacular in spring. The approach to Palouse Falls State Park is crazy. You are driving in flat desert land and suddenly you stop and there is an overlook and a canyon down below!! It always surprises me how magnificent it is to see this 200 ft waterfall out in the middle of nowhere!
Just as we got to the turn off for the state park we saw a whole bunch of cars lined up and the police were blocking the entrance. It turned out that there was a car fire blocking the road to the park. The estimated delay was about an hour and a half. Rather than park and wait; we drove 45 minutes back to the nearest town and got lunch. Burgers, fries, onion rings, and shakes. WORTH IT. By the time we were done eating lunch and drove back to the park; the entrance was open and we were able to head into the park and check out the falls.
One of the joys of this day was that I had no reception. Ahhh...the sweet sound of silence. No phone calls, emails, or texts. We had such a fun day and it was such a nice respite! It felt good to leave our house and our town and to have just the slightest taste of normalcy again.
Day 65: 5-17-20 (Sunday)
Today was Home Church and boy was it needed. It felt so good to focus on what is truly important. It was great to read the scriptures, take the sacrament, sing hymns, teach a lesson, and share in a family devotional. My soul needed it so badly. We also had a CRAZY rain storm that was exciting and rather thrilling!
Kameron wasn't feeling great today. He had to call in to the doctor and do a video chat. It sounds like he may have gotten food poisoning. Poor kid. After our home church he just went to bed. He was pretty miserable.
The girls were quite excited about our Sunday dinner. It isn't a meal that I make very often. Spaghetti! They were thrilled! LOL. Anytime I cook Italian they are over the moon! Ailey made brownies for dessert.
I'm glad that I had a good day because by evening my night had taken a severe turn. One of my sisters crossed quite a line and caused significant damage to our relationship. Damage that you can't come back from without intensive therapy (on her part). I now consider us estranged. She is really toxic...she always has been... but losing my mom, COVID-19, and her own issues have brought out the absolute worst in her. BOUNDARIES! BOUNDARIES! BOUNDARIES!
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