One-a-Day Challenge #6: What Would I Tell Myself a Year Ago

Keep going. 

Last year was a shit show. The entire summer was straight garbage. There is no other way to describe it. It was awful. It was the worst. It was draining, exhausting, depressing, horrible, ugly, and defeating in more ways than I could have ever imagined. Last June the dumpster fire was just starting to blaze and the raging inferno was just around the corner. I was so tired last June. I had no idea how exhausted...physically, psychologically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually... I would/could become. I was so down in it and I didn't know if I would/could resurface. But I did. I did-ish. It's still a work in progress.

The Nine Inch Nails song Down In It was on constant repeat then. It blasted in my airpods constantly.

Kinda like a cloud, I was up way up in the sky
And I was feeling some feelings you wouldn't believe
Sometimes I don't believe them myself
And I decided I was never coming down
Just then a tiny little dot caught my eye
It was just about too small to see
But I watched it way too long
It was pulling me down

I was up above it
I was up above it
(Now I'm down in it)

I was up above it
I was up above it
(Now I'm down in it)

Shut up
So what, what does it matter now
I was swimming in the haze, now I crawl on the ground
And everything I never liked about you is kind of seeping into me
I try to laugh about it now but
Isn't it funny how everything works out
I guess the jokes on me...

I was up above it
I was up above it
(Now I'm down in it)
I was up above it
I was up above it
(Now I'm down in it)

I used to be so big and strong
I used to know my right from wrong
I used to never be afraid
I used to be somebody
I used to have something inside
Now just this hole it's open wide
I used to want it all
I used to be somebody

I'll cross my heart, I'll hope to die
But the needle's already in my eye
And all the world's weight is on my back and I don't even know why
What I used to think was me is just a fading memory
I looked him right in the eye and said, "Goodbye"

I was up above it
I was up above it
(Now I'm down in it)
I was up above it
I was up above it
(Now I'm down in it)
I was up above it
I was up above it
(Now I'm down in it)
I was up above it

Rain, rain go away
Come again some other day
Rain, rain go away
Come again some other day
Rain, rain go away
Come again some other day
Rain, rain go away
Come again some other day

I was up above it
I was up above it
(Now I'm down in it)
I was up above it

Now I'm down in it